Friday, December 24, 2004
Christmas and all that jazz
Merry Christmas everyone! This is probably my last posting of the year. I will back in action around January 10th. Please come back and visit me then. Here is a picture of me with Santa on my shoulder to appease you. Boy don't I look happy? Have a happy new year too!
Friday, December 17, 2004
Winged Piggy for Christmas
So this little piggy is made of cast iron and has wings. He is flying in front of the Christmas tree Ryan got to surprise me a few weeks ago. He's smiling because he knows how much I've always wanted a little winged piggy. Last night I watched tv with him snuggled on my lap. He's a heavy baby.
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
exams are .......
I feel like a slug. I actually feel like a slug. The only movement I do is to go from my apartment to school which is 2 blocks. I sit at a desk all day. There really is no reason to eat... I'm just sitting but I manage to eat at least 3 meals a day. So, my very early New Year's resolution is to be less sluggish. I will be a lawyer soon so I ought to play the part. Although I'm sure there are people out there who think that lawyers are slugs. Tough noodles to you.
Sunday, December 12, 2004
Another Update on Music
Cheers! Drink up.
Saturday, December 11, 2004
1 down 3 to go
I listened to that Bright Eyes song 33 times. Today I have returned to my first love -- Combat Baby by Metric. I have listened to that 56 times.
combat baby
we used to leave the blue lights on
and there was a beat
ever since you have been gone it’s all caffeine-free
faux punk fatigues
said it all before
they try to kick it, their feet fall asleep
get no harm done no
none of them want to fight me
combat baby come back baby
fight off the lethargy
don’t go quietly
combat baby
said you would never give up easy
combat baby come back
get back in town I wanna paint it black
wanna get around
easy living crowd so flat
said it all before
they try to kick it, their feet fall asleep
I want to be wrong but
No one here wants to fight me like you do
combat baby come back baby
fight off the lethargy
don’t go quietly
combat baby
said you would never give up easy
combat baby come back
I try to be so nice
Compromise
Who gets it good?
Every mighty mild seventies child
Every mighty mild seventies child
Beats me
Do doo doo doo
combat baby come back baby
combat baby come back
bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye baby
combat baby come back
how I miss your ranting
do you miss my all time lows
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Brief Moment
I bought a single by Bright Eyes yesterday... and read some reviews, some of which were negative. They are crazy. Bright Eyes is FABULOUS and Take It Easy (Love Nothing) is grrrrr8. You can listen to the song on itunes.
BRIGHT EYES LYRICS - "Take It Easy (Love Nothing)"
First with your hands and then with your mouth. A downpour of sweat, damp cotton clouds. I was a fool, you were my friend. We made it happen.
You took off your clothes, left on the light. You stood there so brave. You used to be shy. Each feature improved, each movement refined and eyes like a showroom.
Now they are spreading out the blankets on the beach. That weatherman is a liar. He said it would be raining but it is clear and blue as far as I can see.
Left by the lamp, right next to the bed, on a cartoon cat pat you scratched with a pen, "Everything is as it has always been. This never happened. Don't take it so bad it is nothing you did. It's just once something dies you can't make it live. You are a beautiful boy. You're a sweet little kid but I am a woman." So I laid back down and wrapped myself up in the sheet. And I must have looked like a ghost because something frightened me and since then I've been so good at vanishing.
Now I do as I please and lie through my teeth. Someone might get hurt but it won't be me. I should probably feel cheap but I just feel free and a little bit empty. No it isn't so hard to get close to me. There will be no arguments. We will always agree. And I will try and be kind when I ask you to leave. We will both take it easy. But if you stay too long inside my memory, I will trap you in a song tied to a melody and I will keep you there so you can't bother me.
here is a picture of Conor Oberst who is Bright Eyes
Thursday, December 02, 2004
studying
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
I'm going to be a lawyer goddamit
Part 2: loose 1 cajillion pounds
Part 3: (skip part 3 b/c I have a job for next year -- go to part 4)
Part 4: buy a classy suit
Part 5: buy a fabulous bag to go with that suit
Part 6: move to Westfield
Part 7: get an adorable Westie and name him Sir Rags of Puppydom(thanks liz for the idea of grand names)
Monday, November 29, 2004
Busy Today and All Weekend
Friday, November 26, 2004
Thankful
I am thankful for:
1. my family and friends who love me unconditionally
2. being lucky. Even when it seems like things aren't going my way -- they always are.
3. an intact sense of humor
4. the opportunities I have been afforded
5. the opportunities I have yet to experience
6. a level of humility
There are probably more... but let's not go overboard. Cheers Friends! I hope you remember what you are thankful for too.
Thursday, November 25, 2004
And I'm not the only one
Click HERE for someone else who hates Rachael Ray.
There is also a "Recall Rachael Campaign" which plans to unseat the Royal Highness of Stupiddumb by emailing FoodNetwork Click HERE.
You Decide - Part IV
Today we are deciding: Who is the biggest ass?
Tim Stupidass Allen -- Monkey Wrench Goon
Pretend carpenter from Clean Sweep who smears paint on the walls with his hands every friggin' episode
Cheapass Bitch
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Loser?
On a brighter note, my room color is gorgeous... so gorgeous I think I will post it. Well, the color looks terrible with my awful quality camera phone. Oh well -- take it from me = it is DEEP purple.
Monday, November 22, 2004
Pit
I'm kind of sad lately but I'm going to pretend that the sadness is fictional -- that I have just made it up to procrastinate. Which is entirely possible.
I'm thinking of getting a chandelier for my bedroom at my mom's. It would be so dream-like and gothic. Maybe I should turn into a goth. Are there goth lawyers?
Saturday, November 20, 2004
Holiday Party
(note those goons behind us)
Here is my Bear with Scott:
And here we are being all crazy and shiz-ite!
Friday, November 19, 2004
You Decide - Part III
If you have to ask which one is my professor please just vote that they look the same. Or admit that you are clearly broke and have never seen a $20 bill.
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Gives Me Flowers Through the Headaches
Is this the good news? There are flowers in Winter? (okay... fall...but *drama,* People!) Anyway, I've been having migraines every day for the past few days. It just feels like I want to crack open my head to let out the pain. So this is the plant that my old housemate Heather gave me... because I was loving it and watering it. And here the planty is! She's blooming for me. I give her water and light. And then she gives me flowers.
Monday, November 15, 2004
Do It Again
I would like to go back to high school and have some do-overs. I was never a person who could look back at my life and regret. But, at this point, I even regret that mentality. I just want to whisper to the high school me a few pearls of wisdom. And then I want to listen to Nirvana.
Hibernation Begins
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Lights of Eyes
but she hasn't forgotten me or ryan. we're still the lights of her eyes!
Update
My sister got engaged last night!!! WOW. So, that's pretty big news.
And that's it. I'm home again this weekend at my mom's. Just trying to get prepared for finals since they are coming up in a few weeks! HOLY CRAP I'M NOT READY.
Cheers!
Thursday, November 11, 2004
Walking the Plank
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Predictions are poor usually
Tonight I couldn't find my MPRE admissions papers... and my brain almost came out the top of my head I got so stressed. But it is SO typical for me not to be able to find something that is very important. But I found it. So there.
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I changed my mind. They're both assholes anyway. They really need each other. I hope she's the one to get the final rose.
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I was right and then wrong. I hate when that Byron left her with the tired line of "how lucky the guy who she will eventually be with is so lucky and that the woman shouldn't settle for less than the best."
And then she said: "Oh yeah... I have an idea. Why don't you go f&*K yourself. And then when your done stuff it up your big fat butt, Buttface...Assbutt." Kidding! She didn't say that!
Oh dear, next week we are going to have to find out how Cindy had a meltdown when she went home.
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Hate to admit it
Call it what you will but it's my life
Here I am with my new haircut. For those of you who know me... this
haircut is not much different than how it usually looks when I get it
cut. But... nonetheless... it is still a new haircut since it is long
overdue. I don't know if you can see the color but it is redder than
usual. A little fun now that I'm not interviewing anymore. I took the picture in semi-darkness because my camera-phone has TERRIBLE quality and it kept creating weird boxes of light on my face. I felt like a supermodel b/c all the pictures I took to get this one except that supermodels have a whole team of photographers while I just have me.
I am thinking now that I will be working in Elizabeth I should get a stun gun. It really appeals to me. Here is more info about stun guns. Too bad I'm such an alarmist.
Monday, November 08, 2004
Brisk Monday
As for my deep interest in real estate, since I have my life mapped out for me until August 2006 (YIKES -- I will be 28), I have a very limited geographic area with which to explore and about which I may fantasize. (That was a confusing sentence.)
I picked a paint color for my bedroom at my mom's house (isn't that nice that she keeps my room as my room and not a library/study/exercise room/hobby room... which is what I hear happens to other people). I picked Benjamin Moore color Sea Life. It is a dddddeeeeeeeepppppp grey/purple. So it will be like I am far under the sea in a sleepy cocoon.
That's all the news. I'm just looking forward to starting the week -- being committed to clinic and school. And I'm so glad I don't have to go on the 3 recently cancelled interviews this week. :-D YAY.
Saturday, November 06, 2004
Relaxing YAY
I'm at my mom's house this weekend and my grandparents came over for dinner. Now I'm watching a wildlife show. Just relaxing because ... now that I have a job.... somehow.... things are less desperate.
And I'm still open to congratulations posts.
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Tears (of joy?)
Have you ever seen the Restatsis commercial where the woman's eyes can't produce enough "tears?" I hate it so much that every time I see it I (aloud) threaten to beat the crap out of her to help her produce tears.
ALL CAPS INDICATE GOOD NEWS
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Monkeys and Other Things
I have also found a dream home. Unfortunately, it is about an hour from school, I have no car, I would have to pay for gas and parking in Newark, and I have a lease right now that is not up until the end of July 2005. Click here for dream house.
I am getting my hair cut on Saturday and I couldn't be more excited. The last time I went was probably APRIL and I highlighted my own hair this summer... which turned out to be a mistake (again)... so I am long overdue.
Monday, November 01, 2004
No Posting Potential
But then again, there is always the dancing M.
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Happy Halloween!
Saturday, October 30, 2004
oh dearie dear
happy almost halloween. i will be staying home doing work for the night of mischief.
Friday, October 29, 2004
And hopefully it will rain
And now a bit from one of my favorite books, Mrs. Dalloway by Virginia Woolf:
"She would not say of any one in the world now that they were this or were that. She felt very young; at the same time unspeakably aged. She sliced like a knife through everything; at the same time was outside, looking on. She had a perpetual sense, as she watched taxi cabs, of being out, out, far out to sea and alone; she always had the feeling that it was very, very dangerous to live even one day. Not that she though herself clever, or much out of the ordinary. How she had got through life on the few twigs of knowledge Fraulein Daniels gave them she could not think. She knew nothing; no language, no history; she scarcely read a book now, except memoirs in bed; and yet to her it was absolutely absorbing; all this; the cabs passing; and she would not say of Peter, she would not say of herself, I am this, I am that."
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
This interview was better
Another Morning
1. I definitely did not get enough sleep. My eye sockets hurt. That's when you know you're still tired.
2. Another interview today -- in Elizabeth. Wish me LUCK! (and start storing up luck because in a few weeks I will have 3 interviews on one day.)
3. I still find it funny that spell-check doesn't recognize blogger. It suggests the following: bloomer, blooper, blotter, blower, logger, flogger, and slogger.
4. Please please let me go back to sleep instead of having to go to class and then the interview and then back to school to go to the evening edition of the class I missed last week because I was sick!
- Mary
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Not Sure
Sometimes I'm not sure if I am inappropriate... I don't know exactly how to act or what to say. I don't really *feel* like a lawyer and I don't *feel* 26. I have the most sluggish feelings really. For all I know I could wake up and be 19 again. And it wouldn't surprise me. I *feel* like that very same person. I am now an ADULT and the changes I can look forward to are ADULT-changes. And really, those don't appeal to me.
Dreams
I had a lot of dreams last night. One of them dealt with submerging animals in a big fish tank. So you don't get worried... it wasn't malicious...at first they were fish, and then turned into cats, and then one of them when I took it out of the water and wrapped it in a towel was a dog which I let run around my sister's room. I dreamed I was sitting on bleachers but it was a classroom and we were basing our analyses on tv shows I had never watched. And then the professor called on me and asked me what I think. I said something like: "It isn't even the fault of these shows. We have been lied to since we were born."
Monday, October 25, 2004
Dark and Mysterious
This is how I look today. Don't I look dark and mysterious?
I was thinking I should photograph myself every day. But I'm not sure I should get into that. I saw a bit on television once about a guy who did that every day from the same distance for years and then you could play them like a flip book and watch him age. I think that might be depressing ... or is it dark and mysterious? (mwwahahahahhaha!) (insert evil laugh).
Ghost of Craigslist Past
Do you remember a while back (possibly months -- possibly August) I
talked about a particular ad on craigslist that horrified me? There
was no rhyme or reason for my horror... it is just a hutch.
"This particular photo of a wood hutch makes me feel like I'm going to
hurl...I think it is the grain of wood that gives me the chills. It is a
grotesque picture of wood on a flimsy particle board tower of pisa. I
should probably feel bad for it being so ugly and not wanted. "
Here is the ghost of craigslist past.
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Nerves!
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Interview News and a Commentary
There is good news and bad on the interview front. I did *not* get the position in Newton but I guess we all saw that coming since he wished me luck in my career. So that is the bad news. The good news is that I have yet another interview request. That is 10 freakin' clerkship interviews. My odds are getting so sweet!
Commentary
I really hate when classmates start a comment with any of the following:
1. "Needless to say....."
2. "Because of the fact that....."
3. "I was just going to say that......"
4. "I was going to ask........."
A catch phrase that precedes a useless comment is not a successful communication tool. In order to sound more intelligent I would suggest longer periods of silence when making a comment (like a forever period of silence).
Yesterday Was Beautiful
I wonder what is is like outside today.
Friday, October 22, 2004
Which Creature Are You?
Which creature are you today? I'm the green and blue fishapus. These
are sold at IKEA. Don't I have a morbid curiosity about weird plush
toys?
Don't Worry
Thursday, October 21, 2004
I WANT TO GO TO THE ZOO
Couldn't Care Less
I have an interview today that I couldn't care less about. I think it is because I am not even sure what I am interviewing for. I'm just showing up in my monkey-suit and hoping for the best ... whatever the best may be.
I'm going to try to be cheerful today even though. Probably music will do the trick.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Blahs
Last night was Louise's birthday so I headed home for that. It was a great evening. I don't think I enjoy anything more than spending time with my family. And that's a fact.
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Stood UP
I'm not sure if I can trust you again
This time we're going to have to meet half way.
I can't always be the one giving in this relationship.
It is all about you and I'm not going to take it anymore.
Luckily I have 2 ADDITIONAL interviews since the last time I posted! That makes 7 judges and one on-campus thing. Yippee! Some day I will be a real lawyer.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Home Sick
Saturday, October 16, 2004
Visions of Sugar Plums
POINT: I can't wait until Christmas!!!!
WHY (besides all the delight the holiday spirit brings): I love candy canes. I love them. I am eating one right now and I think it is left over from last year. Its still good! It is BETTER than good --> it is GREAT. It is the greatest most refreshing most fabulous candy. It is a totally inconvenient shape that needs to be carefully maneuvered but once you really know how to eat a candy cane it is like you were born to eat them. Perhaps, I was born to eat candy canes. If I could go back and tell my flannel-wearing, poetry-writing, Nirvana-listening, teenage self that I was born to eat candy canes that would have saved me a lot of poorly written songs strummed out on a flea market purchased out-of-tune guitar.
Friday, October 15, 2004
Me and the Broccoli - A Shameful Moment?
Today, I was eating and reading up on advanced directives so I can call a client and walk her through one. And I realized I had one piece of broccoli left so I decided to REALLY ENJOY it ... I thought about how good it was while I was eating it and I got lost somewhere in a world that I only go when I am very hungry and I see a pizza commercial on TV and I launch into a dramatic self-composed "I Like Pizza!" song. It is like the world between worlds in the Chronicles of Narnia -- a wooded area where you start to forget where you came from and where you are going and just kind of slip away. (But it was really brief, for those of you who think I have an eating disorder.)
Well, my boss walked in. I felt like I had been caught in the "act" like the Seinfeld episode when George's mother catches him "treating himself like an amusement park."
And therein lies my shameful moment with broccoli. I don't think my relationship with it will ever be the same.
(To give the art-source credit.)
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Another "You Decide."
Although I may live in the city with the second highest rate of sexually transmitted diseases in the COUNTRY, at least I don't live HERE.
Am I lucky? You decide.
soap opera watching chemical induced sweet sweet nothing brain
This title is the description of what I wish my brain could be. I want
my brain to be made of pure sweet cotton candy. Oh law, why do you forsake me?
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Remedy: The Nanny
I have another interview (in Union County for those of you who live near there and might be happy that I would be closer OR for those who would rather I didn't move too far away from NY) -- so that means I have 5 in total... I think... Cool right? My chances are getting better! Yippee!
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Heaven or Hell?
The good news (besides that I got offered another interview today -- in Tom's River) is that I got to spend the whole day with my mom and Simon (dog of course!) in the fine country air. We drove all around Sussex County (NJ), Pike County (PA) -- specifically Milford, and Orange County (NY) -- specifically Port Jervis. The leaves were beautiful, the air was crisp, and I was a happy bird.
Monday, October 11, 2004
Sick? I hope not.
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Dear Newton, Here I come!
The good news is that I would be really excited about nearly anywhere... probably just not AS EXCITED. I have spent time in Dingman's Ferry (PA) and the Pocono Environmental Education Center (PEEC) which is pretty near there and I LOVE THE AREA. I would finally be able to breathe.
So wish me luck!
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Vote for Me
There is really no point in posing questions to these two if they are just going to resume the same tired monologue. They are not presidential candidates but just two boys fighting it out in the school yard. Do I really want a person like that as president? I'm pretty sure I don't. That's why you should vote for me. (as you have seen my slogan in another post)
"Vote for me. I'm not full of shit."
Friday, October 08, 2004
Work Shmurk
I spend the day at work researching consolidation of student loans, filling out forms for income contingent consolidated loans, and figuring out what the requirements are for disability discharge.. of student loans. And no... it wasn't for my loans. For a client's. It would have been interesting ... except that it was all drawn out by a meeting with the client and the advocate who is actually handling the case.
So I'm tired. And now I am watching the one show that makes me feel relaxed: the Nanny.
(also does anyone know what song is in the Smallville commercial? it is so catchy i want to eat it. or at least listen to it on repeat... did you know that i listen to songs on repeat sometimes for days. it is true.)
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Scary Drudge Kittens
The kittens part of this entry is that I just read an article about cloning kittens which was linked by Drudge. Click Here For The Article! People can actually clone their dead pet! What's next??? Why don't we just clone each other so we never have to miss someone who dies or leaves... or even a clone in case your spouse travels a lot for work. Or a clone of yourself to send to work. If you make enough money you could just get a clone to work for you. That's the way to go.
OH HELP CLONING IS SCARY. LIKE HALLOWEEN SCARY BUT WORSE. I wish I still found Halloween scary. I can't even make it scary for myself by watching a horror movie because I am so scared of horror movies and I freak the living crap out. I can't be alone for days -- honestly weeks.
Speaking of scary, I love when there are scary toys for kids -- like the one I had posted from IKEA. Now Playskool is rivaling IKEA for "SCARIEST TOY OF THE YEAR." Here is BooBah! (see picture below.)
Bachelor Divided Fields? (combination of topics for fun)
[Insert here my narrow, unpopular view of 2004 issues. The gist of it is that it is all semantics and everyone is saying the same thing. That's why you should just vote for me. I'm not full of shit.]
By the way, I have never mentioned that my favorite band has been and continues to be the Magnetic Fields. Did anyone know that? Maybe I will quote them from time to time.
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
A New Look
How do you like the new look of my page? I thought I would spruce it
up a bit. I was really getting tired of the header and couldn't figure
out how to change it... but I figured it out!
Today I went food shopping (in addition to classes). Meghan took me she
is so nice. (I wonder if other future lawyers read this page and are
appalled at my grammar... not realizing that this is the time I can be
free from rules! I know I use run-on sentences. And fragments.)
Okay, anyway, Meghan and I went to Pathmark and I bought a TON of food!
Yippee. It was a nice relaxing time spent with one of my favorite
people. I couldn't be more lucky to have her. And I got some treats
for Ryan. He is going to be so happy.
I have a good solid study weekend ahead of me which I really need
because I have been neglecting my studies (shame on me!) and I will be
missing classes to interview (because I got yet another interview!!!).
I have been thinking about wearing broaches. They are lovely aren't
they? Then I found this nice spread of animal pins.
Snooping Is Fun and Now You Can Do It Too (in the safety of your own home) (legally)
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Not Jokes
So I wrote this whole entry about how Flickr sucks my butt b/c they were down last night but how cool it is that I can just send them an email instead of entering all this old-school-style and then I decided to do just that. I really didn't feel like using flickr because I hate the format it has to be in. Besides ... they put all those carrots in my entry (see below). (Btw, it is probably my fault... but I like to blame them).
So there is some commercial where a woman asks her husband if there is magique where they are going.... and he envisions all these crazy clowns / performers drawing on him and stuff... and I don't know what magique is... so I tried to look it up (on google of course)... and I didn't really find the answer (mostly because I can't remember French from High School) but what I did find is that if you look up "magique" under images in google you will find interesting delights. Oh google, you never cease to please me.
Being Good
>
> I am having a lovely evening by myself. I did a little reading.
> Fixed my eyebrows a little. And watched a Lifetime movie about an
> Amish girl who was pregnant and her baby was dead. I am going to bed
> after Seinfeld. I had some DREAMS last night. One of them was the
> age-old "oh my god I have a final and I don't know anything" dream.
> At least it will be motivation for me.
>
> Isn't this beautiful? This is me with a wand and crown. Being good.
> --
Monday, October 04, 2004
Complimentary Starbuck
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Apple Picking
Ryan is checking out the apples.
I am reaching for one.
Yummy apples, I will put you in a pie.
Friday, October 01, 2004
Much Worse
I bet you don't like looking at pictures of my feet. It is just another reason to hope my toe gets better.
Here is the hunk of ice I was putting on my toe at work:
Isn't it pretty?